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Despair

Today I will not run away from despair. The dark night of the soul comes before the dawn. I am not here only to feel good and take it easy. Despair in recovery can mean that I am letting go of old ways of coping and trying to learn new ones. I am here to grow and to experience myself as a spiritual being connected in some mysterious level to all of life. If I deny myself my greatest pain, I will keep myself from my greatest joy. There is a divine order to what appears to be chaos. There is a method in the madness. There will be lessons and quiet miracles, freedom from inner bondage and calm after turbulence. All that I go through has a purpose if I choose to.look at it that way. I trust that even though I cannot see it the Universe is unfolding as it should.

I trust that there is a plan for me.

You may not know it, but at the far end of despair is a white clearing where one is almost happy.

Extract from Tian Dayton’s book Daily Affirmations for Forgiving and Moving On.

Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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    1. Just had really bad news about my dogs health, and feeling trapped by my own very real limitations to be honest. I need to get out of here (hospital) as soon as I can Jasper is seriously in need of mediical care and his current carers can no longer help, sleep is going to be illusive tonight. How are you?

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      1. I’m so sorry to hear about Jaspers health! What a balance to have to strike. How are things going now?

        I’ve been doing okay. Mixed with everything, slowly but surely, I’m seeing growth in myself.

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      2. Its challenging. I’ve just been admitted to a mental health rehab unit anfmd Jasper is in emergency care. Fingers crossed the RSPCA will take him for interim care. It tears on my heartstrings as I know you will understand I’m.hoping to get day leave to see him.soon.
        ❤️
        Its good to hear you are doing well

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      3. One of my cats responded abnormally to anesthesia when he was younger and they had to keep him over night. I couldn’t think straight that whole night with worry. When our pets are unwell and away from us it’s so difficult.
        If you are able to see Jasper that would be wonderful for you both. Hoping you receive that time.

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