Negation

Sometimes an anger so fierce

Stoms in

And wants to obliterate

Everything

Especially the toxic killing voices

That tell me I am

And never was

Good enough

Or had the right

To have needs

Or take up space

For fuck’s sake

Why couldn’t you see

I needed compassion, understanding

A warm hug

Empathy

And love

I was only a young girl all alone

Travelling the world

With no inner father

Only a short time ago you had died

And then the fucking witch sent me away

I am sorry to use those words

See yet again

Anger is stealing in

To take the place of grief

Why do we do this as a collective

Obliterating the most tender self

Only to erect a defense of steel

Like girders around the heart

It will not allow

Even a whiff of fear

Or deep insecurity

To be tenderly known

But now I see the truth

Of how deeply alone I really was

And then of how I only

Turned against

And blamed myself

And let you shame and blame me too

Fuck you!!

I said it and you understood

While others turned their backs

There is so much to be thankful for

But so much too

To be angry about

But isn’t this sadly just

The way of our

Fracturing modern world

Our heart chakra is calling us awake

To open ears to hear

To open hearts to feel

To open our minds to let go

Of the toxic stranglehold

Of negative judgement

Shaming fear

And negation?

And if not

How can we ever welcome in for humanity

The needed celebration

Of healing

Unconditional love?