It broke my heart a little reading this today, the 5th anniversary of my Mum’s death. I was trying so hard to ‘fit it’ and feeling such an unnecessary anxiety, though it was totally understandable… I hope to think I have grown and would not have felt so anxious about how I may be received by family.. Who knows if its not all, just my projection.
Well it was a very late log on to WordPress today and I am ending the day with a big stomach ache. I went today to get a dress to wear to my grandniece’s 21st on Saturday as well as a present, and delighted as I was to be invited its not comfortable for me to be going, I have had so little to do with the older son of my older brother over the years I have lived only 5 minutes away. They live in a very different world to me, at times to me it seems a cold world in which the trappings of success seem to be pursued but then I see that my niece in law is a stay at home Mum, she has always been there for both daughters. There is a very strange formal stilted energy around the entire family and even as…
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Emerging From The Dark Night 