Stormy skies

Stormy skies today. The temperature hasn’t got above 8 degrees and wind chill factor must be sub zero, never the less Jasper and I braved the wild winds for a pre therapy walk, I love the feeling of vital aliveness that comes with meeting the natural elements. It takes me out of my head and into my body. I consider recent comments on the intellect and think its fine as far as it goes but there are parts of us the intellect cannot always reach and where in terms of life is there really a safe space to stand and how real is the ‘Self’ we get so bent out of shape on trying to defend at times with all the thoughts that race through our minds which then try to shore up our identity and protect ourselves. I struggle to define things anyway and it always comforting to feel a flow opening where before there were limits our boundaries which I also know are necessary at time to protect our vital energy.

That said I believe their is a force of spirit that guides us and reading recent writings by Mark Nepo I love his take on this. He asks us to awaken our hearts and reach for what brings a sense of vital aliveness outside of at times stultifying conditions that deaden us in our hearts. But trying to write about the true width and breadth and depth of the human condition is not something that can ever be complete, there are just our own takes and perspectives on things that are shaped out of so many other influence and forces

For now I am going to rest in my favourite afternoon pastime. I will ‘be’ in my body, in my presence process with the breath. As I rest in the slowing energy of a late winter afternoon dying down. It has been a tumultuous week and I am happy for the calmer seas that are now prevailing inwardly even if outside my window we are in for a few more days of wild, stormy (possibly snowy) weather.