Here I am

Here I am

Just a little bit fragile

In the places where a solid foundation

Could not really grow

Trying my best to stay afloat

On ever shifting sands

There you are

Knowing my heart

Feeling it across great distances

Holding up a mirror

Offering hope

Yet also awakening me to

All of my fears

All of the tightly locked spaces

I long denied

But deep inside

There is just this joyous being

Who dances and loves

With a gay abandon

Who so many years was taught

She better reign it all in

I am finding the way to her now

As all the other defences came down

I only thought were keeping me safe

For me life was

Ever confusing

And full of so much fear

But now as I feel the love

I lost the way to

Returning

I want you to know

How much I am opening

From my inward closing

And how much I tremble

In anticipation

As I open to discover

More and more

Of who I really am