I am receiving yet more comments from the said bloggers follower of how I instigated ‘attacks’ back in 2017. Were your privy to all emails exchanged? Did you actually know all that went down? I do not think so.
I did not ask to be promoted. I was uncomfortable about it but at first I was shocked so I think I may have thanked her but then I could not understand why this happened and I truly do not remember all that happened after that as it was two years ago I have had a massive head injury and multiple trauma including breast cancer surgery and radiotherapy 6 or so months before. I WAS NOT COMFORTABLE BEING PROMOTED.
I WAS THEN IN ‘TROUBLE’ FOR NOT BEING STRAIGHT UP WITH HER. I posted something on the following Thursday after sharing everything with my therapist who is privy to things said that I now have no evidence of because I WAS SO DISTRESSED I DELETED THE COMMENTS. Apparently this was what upset the person and she labelled me as passive aggressive, said she felt sorry for me that I was ‘sad all the time and jealous’? amongst other mean things all not on her blog though I do recall her posting something in comments at the time about me and how ‘yuk’ and pathetic I was. This really hurt so much when the gardener turned up the next day I burst into tears with him.
I tried to search my soul for why she labelled me passive aggressive and this the post that you Mr xxravenously whoever you are are saying is the one I attacked K in. I read that post back a few days ago and reposted it yesterday and I said in it K had acted out of the goodness of her heart but that I was very very confused in the aftermath. AT NO TIME WAS IT AN ATTACK ON K IT WAS A WAY TO TRY AND MAKE SENSE OF ALLEGATIONS MADE AGAINST ME.
A follower must have commented on it a few days later and that is the screen shot that you have referred to posted on her blog. In it I said that I had been pursued which was how it felt to me but may have been interpretation I said I think that I had been discarded. This was how it felt but may have come out of past deep abandonments of which I have had at least 20….
I DID NOT LIE I WAS TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF SOMETHING. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE I AM TRYING TO HEAL MY LIFE FROM LOSS I DO NOT DESERVE THIS MY MOTHER DIED A WHILE BACK AND I AM TRYING TO SUPPORT SOMEONE OVER SEAS WHO HAS NO MONEY AND MY SISTER WHO IS STRUGGLING WITH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE. I NEVER WANTED TO HURT ANYONE I AM NOT AN ABUSER OR A ‘PERPETRATOR’ I NEVER CALLED K NAMES OR LABELLED HER I MERELY EXPRESSED HOW BEING ON THE RECEIVING END OF SOMETHING I DID NOT ASK FOR FELT FOR ME. ITS SO DISTRESSING ITS HARD TO BREATHE. PLEASE STOP THE BASELESS ALLEGATIONS
Deb,
Take a deep breath and think about it this way. People who point fingers and spread untruths are expending YOUR energy. There are plenty of soul vampires out there, believe me I know.
As the old Crowded House song once opined, don’t let them win.
Peace and love
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Thank you Marc ive tried to apologise as you may have seen. I do appreciate your advice. π
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You know it!
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And thats one of my all time favourite sings btw.. π€
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GREAT song! π
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The best!!!
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I also hope I haven’t misrepresented anything as this man claims this all started over an innocent birthday greeting which I reacted to back in 2017 , but the distress caused has been huge. The last thing I want to do is paint anyone in a wrong light is all. It’s all a bit tangled up now but I am doing my level best to own my part. Was on the way to the doctor when I sent my earlier comment. β€
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You’re good, Deb. We can’t always be the master of our initial reactions to something. But we can own what comes of it, which you have.
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That’s reassuring.. phew!! Im flying by the seat of my pants right now lol..
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Just breathe. And don’t be so hard on yourself. π
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Bless you so much π€
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You know it’s bad when you cry to the gardener π
Seriously though..I’m not in any place to really comment as I wasn’t involved, but I’m not sure you’re the one who should be apologising. Well done for getting your points across, I hope this post can feel somewhat cathartic. These sorts of things, these people and comments, they don’t deserve your energy or heartbreak. You have such a good heart, I know you intend no harm and I hate that things can be twisted like this. xxxx
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Im glad you see it that way Caz..somehow she spun me round to the point I was so damn upset and confused I had to do something Ive never done before and blocked her commenting. I was tearing my hair out.
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