Dissolved within this ocean

I love you but…

Sometimes you really hurt me

Possibly without meaning to

Sometimes I cry so much with the longings I had

To be seen and known and connected to you

And so it was I would twist anyway to try

To find the sunshine

Even if so much rain continued to fall upon my parade

But with the wisdom of hindsight

Maybe I see what I wanted was not possible for you

Far harder to let the struggle go

And feel the pain of that emptiness

I would fall into

Than keep fighting any way for rescue

And yet I also know what happens

When I stem this flow of love

That seeks to pour its blessings upon you

But it may be confusion

That ever led me to believe

I could make a difference

And yet whenever we connect

Tears my darling well they just start to flow

Along with sorrow for all those times past

When you tried so hard to connect to me too

The truth is we each own our own hearts

And there is an ocean where we were once mixed

And to which

One day we will return

So today if I cry again

Maybe it is only out of longing to once again

Find its source

And be once again

Dissolved within this ocean