Killer

Killer

You haunted me down a long corridor of years

Turning every pleasure into pain

Telling me I have no right to enjoy

This life that I am living

Cutting me off from light and joy and hope

Convincing me for years that dope

Was the only way to get high

What a fucking lie

Your poisonous utterances

Were always designed to extinguish

Any kind of life or fire

That burned inside me

Tying me in lots of knots of confusion

Deep inside my mind

Making me look behind every closed door

For thieves

Sending your waves of misery

Cutting off potentials and relationships

Tender fragile

Struggling to grow

You operate through F.O.G.

Fear is what stops me

Arresting my heart

Tearing my insides apart

Obligation is what ties me down

Guilt is the poison I drank with mother’s milk

From the fountain of a youth

Squeezed into hollowness by religious edicts that lied

Killer

Oh now I know you so well

Hidden in all of your various disguises

How I long to be free of you

No one ever really knew the blood you made me shed

For all these years

Draining away my vital life force

Leaving me drowning in dread

My heart weighted down like lead

All for nothing

All in vain!