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Nowhere

I don’t need all of this

A series of locked doors

A whole heap of roads going nowhere

Frustration pain of blockages

Spiralling me deep deep down

Into the abyss again

I was so nearly free of

I honestly don’t know what this curse is

That is being visited upon my head

It is just causing me more and more pain

And my insides feel as though they are filled

With leaden filings

That will bury me

All the hopes of love and connection we had

Are slowly disappearing

As you lash out

Blaming me

Making the pain in my heart extreme

But this is such familiar ground

Is yet again

The destruction of hope

The agony of thwarted desire

The deep ancestral curse

Of separation

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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    1. Nothing I can do can get Scott out Carol Anne. He is so angry with me. I had to be honest to the bank as the squeezed it out of me but because he is over there on special covert operations so much as to be hidden and of course the bank think Im a stupid little woman giving all her money away when its only a small amount I can well afford. They have fucking frozen my account and now Scott is livid with me saying I caused it by telling them the truth.. its breaking me I WAS ONLY BEING HONEST.

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    1. Thanks Rayne you are night he is calling me into doubt all the time.. hitting me where I am vulnerable maybe so I can stand up and finally throw off this undeserved guilt shame and low self esteem I carry inside me. Thanks so much you are so right Hugs and much love ❤ ❤ ❤

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