Intense

If things are feeling a bit intense in your world at present (a bit more than usual) its not unusual because in 6 days time the Sun meets Pluto at 20 degrees of Capricorn which marks a new cycle in transformation, inner work, honesty, rebirth, breaking through to genuine integrity. We have four critical points in the Sun Pluto cycle each year and the seed point is when the conjunction happens. The opposition of these two took place back in early June and we are at the tail end of the 12th phase of the cycle so if you are feeling pressure to shed things, be it old patterns, ways of being, if you are having intense conflicts which require honesty and surrender of your will to a higher will or purpose or just being challenged to hold onto your personal integrity, I am not surprised.

It is interesting that Pluto’s transit of Capricorn has seen the rise of very authoritarian old school leaders, case in point Donald Trump and the new leader of Brazil. I don’t follow a lot of politics but its easy to see this conservative reactionism as backlash after the transit of Pluto through the fiery sign of Sagittarius. The earth is also crying out as Capricorn is an earth sign and was associated to the god Pan who was a horned nature God who was exiled when sexuality and the divine feminine began to be repressed in the dark ages. We are seeing the lions’ roar of conscious femininity screaming out for the past year or so. Women don’t want to be subjugated any more but we have to be careful too that we don’t savage the wounded feminine in men. So many men suffer as much if not more than women at times in a culture that venerates machismo and encourages men to lie about how the feel and demonises them for doing it.

I am half way through a book on a young man from England who suffered depression called Boys Don’t Cry. He had such a struggle being honest about his feelings and lost several relationships when he was diagnosed with depression. Eventually he found a partner who supported him and did not demonise him and she encouraged him to come clean at work. He was at that stage trying to get of alcohol and anti depressants to find his true self, he knew he wasn’t happy (like a lot of men) in the old world culture.

I personally growl for men when I see how they are treated by women at times. Where is the love for our other half? Where is the realisation that men suffer just as much in our wounded culture that venerates egoism and heroism at the expense of grounded humanity? Where is the understanding that men are sexual beings who need to express that sex drive but in a way that honours others. There was a belief in years gone by that prostitution could be a sacred profession. Women who were sexually liberated could in this way help men to express themselves and their sexuality. I am sorry but I am not into perverted sexuality. A true sexual relationship should be one that respects the boundaries and sensitivities of the other. If one doesn’t like aggressive sex (and I don’t) that should be respected.

Anyway its more the feeling wound in men that I am trying to speak for in this post. Boys should be able to cry if they want to. They should be supported in that. They should not be demonised if they are tender or sensitive. The cult of bullying and trying to ‘make a man’ out of men or putting them down is downright abuse and it needs to be called out for what it is.

I personally love a strong man who is not afraid to cry. My ex would literally go ballistic around my tears and when he cried it was in the most rigid defended way. It was really sad to see the armouring in him and then the way he blamed me and told his whole family how hard I was to be with because I suffered depression. I admit its not always easy to love a depressed person but I was not sitting around the house crying every day and when I did start to express sadness, like when we went to visit his father who was sick and dying, I got in trouble for it.

Anyway maybe this is all coming up because its coming up the anniversary of his birthday and our separation which became final in January 2011. He was a Sun sign Capricorn with a very soft sensitive Pisces moon but it was deeply conflicted by a Chiron conjunction and opposition to Pluto. He never forgave his mother for leaving his alcoholic father and a lot of that rage ended up getting displaced onto me. Admittedly I did not have as much awareness and sensitivity as I needed back then, its taken the last 7 tears of therapy to make things clearer to me about why he acted the way he did in our relationship and I was shown up as a transit happening to him, as most relationships are. At the time we meet a partner with a certain planetary signature that persons ends up entering our life when we have a transit to an important planet or chart point from the planetary ruler and this shows the lessons we are working on to balance the inner masculine and feminine with in us because we all have a contra opposite energy of masculine and feminine in each of us.

I am hoping to move towards doing chart readings again some time this year. I steered clear of it for a while as I used to pick up things psychically and end up with injuries before doing some readings a while back and the person would turn up and tell me they had suffered some kind of injury my psyche had read remotely. It scared me and I also didn’t like people thinking I was ‘reading their future’ when really astrology for me is not about that, its about self knowledge.

Anyway these are my thoughts for today. I will be interested if over the next week followers feel things are intense for them. Deep feelings get stirred up by Pluto, its the Underworld energy that tells us we must be reborn or die, so if feelings of wanting to check out are extra strong over the next week just try to honour what your psyche is trying to tell you about what skins need to be shed. It may not be that you have to end everything only a certain way of life or behaviour or a relationship that no longer serves your forward evolution.