I am in mental health rehab at the moment and while here have not been able to write for about 9 weeks now. I am doing a lot of art though just cannot share here any of my images due to lack of technical expertise, due to the fact that my phone will not upload them to.Wordpress. Today my art focused on freedom and maple leaves after a long and deeply meaningful conversation with my sister about her own mental health challenges. Compared to 3 months ago we now seem to be speaking a similar language. She agrees about the distance in our family but shared too about how some torn emotional threads are being taken up and reconnected within her own two children’s lives to cousins from.her husbands side. Her short term memory of events and connections around the time of her Electro Convulsive Therapy since around 2015 is still absent so at times I act as her memory for those outings and events, which also encompassed the death of our older sister, Judith.
However what called me to write tonight was a late night conversation with a fellow resident in rehab, Ben, who was suffering sleeplessness. We were musing on the power and beauty of nature at the same time as sharing issues of our struggles in relation with other humans, “if nothing is perfect” said Ben “then what is to be made of the beauty of the luminescent night sky, is that not perfect?” I had to agree which called to mind a quote with words to the effect “nature does not make mistakes.” Therefore every single human being is a piece of nature, valuable and priceless, even as our mind sadly become prone to make of it all an aberration riven with myriad anxieties.
Today was a high anxiety day. My dog Jasper is in boarding Kennels after being diagnosed with several serious health issues, including pancreatitis, diabetic ketone acidosis and a heart murmur and my own heart strings were being constantly pulled in his direction. Another resident here would gladly have taken me to see him today but that was not allowed, sadly and I couldn’t break the rules, even if my new friend Darren was willing to do so. At this stage I long to be back home and available to give him food food as well as the twice daily needed injections of insulin along with regular exercise and I am constantly reminded of how much I had to be grateful for before this recent 9 week hospitalisation.
I miss my bubba so much, I miss the touch of his soft fur with waves of white and black so.like a soothing ocean of yum. I miss his soulful.brown eyes that stare dreamily at me as he rests on his bed and I miss his crazy ‘ so pleased to see you dance ‘ so often on show when male visitors call. My dog to.me is perfect a perfect natural being and lately the gift of his presence is so often on my mind and in my heart.
I must try to rest now. Its 10.30 pm.and I’ve been awake since 5 am. In the rehab they like to have us medicated into sleep by 9 pm but tonight I had to chart my own course but my eyes are all blurry right now. I miss my WordPress family after weeks away from.yhe blogsphere. So adieu lovely WP family you are in my heaet and soul today. Please pray for me and Jasper to soon be reunited. π¦β€οΈππΉππΌ
Be well, and am sending blessings to you today and every day.
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Thankypu for the blessingss
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Take care.
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Sending you so many hugs and prayers. I so hope the sun starts to shine for you π
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I am so happy you could write, but I’m very sorry to hear Jasper is ill, poor puppy! I’ll be praying you and Jasper are reunited really soon! Take care, Sweet Deb! β€
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Thank you for your kind thoughts
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I miss you and your writings, but do what must be done for your health. I am happy to hear you are enjoying making art – it is such a wonderful hobby and healing too.
It sounds like you are finding and connecting with kind souls around you. Ben’s words and your reflections on them are simply beautiful! Nature does reveal so much truth to us, and it is always right there waiting to do so. Relationships with humans (including ourselves) on the other hand, though we are all a part of nature too, almost always have such a confusing way about them. Nature is our grounding. π±ππ¦’
So sorry to hear that Jasper is still unwell, and that you two are parted. Your description of what you miss about him is overflowing with your love of him. You painted such a sweet and joyful little image of him in my mind. I will be praying for that reunion. Sending you love always π
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Thank you so very much. Mobile reception is poor where I am so its 5 days ago you wrote this
I miss the WordPress community a lot, but you are right, kindness IS all-round me and for that I am grateful as painful as this separation from.my home and Jasper is. Sending you all my love I am blessed to call you friend. β€οΈππΉπ¦π
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I wish you a speedy recovery as they would say in France, take good care, many thoughts
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Thank you π
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How are you doing? Howβs Jasper? I think of you often β€οΈ. Hope all is shifting towards joy and peace for you.
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Thank you for your thoughts. Sending you love and peace. β€οΈ
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Iβm reading backβ¦ so thanks for the update, sorry about Jasper, but trust that both your journeys are in divine hands! Enjoy creating your artβ¦ allow it to bring you into peace and healing. Sending love x
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Thank you Barbara
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