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Ache

Mother nature I ache

I yearn from your green soothing healing

Deep down in the core of my soul

Here amidst all the sickness

All of the artificial light

All of the consant whirring

Whirling abd noise

My soul feels hollowed out

My body hurts from the consnt

Prodding, pushing, lancing

In he mirror I see a skeleton

A shell of the person I once was

Over 5 years I let you do this

Feast on my flesh

Run me ragged

Manipulate my emotions

Now what is left

But my own deep regret

Because sadly I chose

Darkness over light

Now at night even the moon seems obliterated

What a trance I lived

What a lie I told myself

Mother nature please hear my cry

For the absent Mother I longed

So very deep in my body

Now I must turn to her

Centre myself deeply

Within her healing embrace

Sending roots of trust far down

Deep into the earth

Or wither and die

Love is in the earth

I cannot live without this

The healing all forgiving compassin

Of the Great Mother’s love

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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  2. I’m so sorry to hear you are in a time of struggle. 💔 I do hope you can connect with that inner source of love within you. Let Her take care of you as the loved child that you are. She will not judge, she will not blame, she will simply be there with care for you. I pray you do feel her presence today, and more and more each day.

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    1. Im lying here in the hospital seeing how this man I connected to and trusted completely devastate my body the grief i enormous. I may never be independent at home again. So those wise words are so timely. We must value the inner personal life intensely. Hugs and much love to you.

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      1. This is so heartbreaking to hear. 💔 Do you fear you will never be able to live independently again due to your health? Do you have access to books or anything that helps you connect to yourself and find a sense of peace?
        If there is something I could send to you (books, journals, art supplies , writing materials, etc.) which could help at all, I’d like to.

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      2. If me sending you something is possible/something you’d like, let me know if you know how to connect privately on here. I don’t see your email, and not sure how to use a private messenger on WordPress if it exists.

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  3. Dearest Deborah, I hear you crying, and I’m so sorry you are suffering so much pain and despair. You deserve so much better than this, and I wish I could carry your pain on my back to give you some respite. I’m also very glad that you’re still able to write. Keep doing that; it will help you stay connected to yourself and the world outside. All your friends are still here for you, even though we are never likely to meet. I care about you greatly and am sending kind and loving thoughts to you. Hang on in there, my dear friend. Sending you many healing and comforting hugs, and very much love Xxx 💓💐💞

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      1. Oh, Deborah. That’s appalling. Surely, it’s not right to put you in an all-male ward, let alone a geriatric ward. I’m shocked. Where are you in the world (I’m unsure if you’ve said before)? You don’t deserve any bad karma, my friend. You have done nothing wrong. I’ve been in mixed sex psychiatric wards before (in the past), but never been put in an all-male ward. Are you in a psychiatric ward or a general ward? I do care about you, Deborah – a lot. Keep me updated with your situation and any progress, or otherwise. Xx 💓💐💞

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