Self love

Today I wrapped my arms around myself and cried

Deep inside I felt the pain

Of so many lies I told myself

As I understood how fast I ran

Thinking I was not okay as I am

Always trying harder to please

Or appease others

Today I felt the love in my heart

I so often feel for others

A love and care that made me want to help

To reach out my arms and to give of myself

But I also saw the continued cost

Of this

Today I heard those healing words

Unconditional love

And felt the possibility of extending that

To my own heart

To my own inner being

To my own body

To my own soul

Something broke open deep inside me then

A realisation

An awakening

This is the need I have now

To rest in peace

And to find a way to bliss

That only can come

With self understanding

Forgiveness

And compassion

For the many ways I tried

Releasing and freeing myself from the sadness

For the many ways

I abandonded

Betrayed

Or lied to myself