Softness, innocence

Softness

You flow around me like waves

Gentle in their undulation

Falling and rising

Rising and falling

Softness

You are the place were beauty lives

And as I feel this love enter me

All that is broken is healed

As my soul is restored

Sometimes it is the dusk

That opens me to this feeling

A bittersweet tenderness

Nostalgia

But also a growing insight into the dark path I followed

In those final years before

I found sobriety

Sobriety was not an end of the hurting

Only of one kind

It was an entry into the dark night

And so it was

Now I see the many ways I held on and resisted

I remember too how it was

To feel I must always fight

But now

On the brink of night

Sometimes surrender finds me

Like vast ocean tides

That are flowing with the pull of the moon

Bathed by the rhythms of the Great Mother

Rocked gently to sleep

I let go

A human being growing older

But now returned

To the original bliss

Of child like

Innocence