The memory of us
Dances behind my eyes
As the feelings swirl around in me
And I sense myself falling again
Into that lost helplessness
We live and then we live it all again
Over and over
Putting the fractured pieces together
As best we can
Running fast at times
From the pain of a damage
We dare not to face
But what becomes of us when we
Turn away
From it?
What becomes of our soul?
For sure there are some memories that will haunt us
Even long years have passed
And we will only begin to surrender the pain
Slowly over time
As we grieve
It all depends upon so many things
But for me today
Despite the pain
I know only this
Deep inside my soul
I wish you
Peace
Emerging From The Dark Night 
It’s only natural, that we become, trapped again in what is already, gone, because of all those, what-might-have-beens, and, once we do, we spiral downward, spinning out of control, not knowing if we are going to, survive, of if we will, hit that, rock, bottom, and, get back up again, but we still, allow ourselves, to fall, and to, spiral downward again, and, again.
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We do especially around anniversaries.
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Grieving can be such a long process. Loss can come in so many forms and layers. Wrestling with the memories seems to be part of the process of moving on and yet so difficult and painful. Wishing you strength and hope.
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Thank you so much for your compassionate and wise understanding as well as your willingness to reach out in love, I do appreciate it ❤
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