Need

Lately I see myself

Hovering above a dark pit

Of need

My wounds bleed silently

As I realise how alone you were

No loving arms wrapped around you

To keep you safe in a depressing world

Washed clean of comfort

Abundance

Joy and creativity

Those monsters used you

In their awful habits

Like a slave

Day after heartbreaking day

You navigated this world alone

So if you were angry and hurt me

Now I understand

But how much much more I needed

Mum and Dad

So now that bloody monster

Savages me from within

Telling me under the cover of deepest silence

Over and over and over

I am NOTHING

But a waste of space

How evil it is

This crazy devil

Who will keep me safe

Warm the cold stone child?

Return the light and fire to my eyes

Only I

Or

Perhaps the wood the ocean

The fire the wind

The stars

The sun and the sky

Will show me the mixed up ways of humans

Are to blame

Not my woundrous inner child

Who struggles on so valiantly ever day

Trying so doggedly

To come fully alive