Purity

So many of us learned to shun the younger dependent self who was open to damage.. We try to appear tough and strong while hiding wounds of the self that need our love. The following reading from Tian Dayton spoke to me today.

Today, I understand that I was born deeply dependent. It is no wonder that it was so terrifying when I stopped being able to rely on my parents – I was so completely vulnerable and needy. “Where were you?” is the cry of my inner child.. I have taken some of this cry with me into adulthood as a feeling that no one can really understand me or my pain, but as I look back it seems so obvious and uncomplicated. Of course I feel bereft and desperate – who wouldn’t? It is the wall that I have built around those feelings that is so complicated and hard to dismantle. It is made of self delusion, unspoken grief, resentment and fear. It is when I can take down my own wall, return to my former innocent state and feel what that child felt, that I can find myself and my Higher Power

I can face the full extent of my pain

Unless you become like a child you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 18.3.