Reckoning

I lost myself a long time ago

Seeking the missing love and connection

In any way I could

Avoiding the truth and reality

Of the genuine encounter

So much so that now I weep these silent tears

Knowing in a world of strangers no one will

Notice me

Today I woke in the strangest place

Surrounded by the ancestral loneliness

I struggle to breath and stand

My head full of grit

Seeking the place where real ife can be found

Among these ruins

Of my past mistakes

And blindnesses

But it can only be this way

There is no one to help me

So I must keep doing all that I possibly can

To stay alive

And understand my fellow man

Trying my level best to find compassion

For the loss of true power

Has difficult consequences

And the anger that remains

Must be used wisely

Or else we drown underneath

That wave of grief and shame

We fail to understand

And make our individual

Reckoning with