Update

Kat and I had a good session by phone. She says quite complex defences and fears are rising up for understanding and change within me around anger, need, emotions, vulnerability and relationships. She felt I showed a bit of this with some contempt I expressed about her ‘failure’ to understand the depth and intensity of anger expressed on Monday last.

Being honest this is true it was me puffing myself up to feel stronger. We are working it through and I feel held, safe and understood by her. She said how we makes sense of my defences coming out of this will be important.

I am also starting to recognise unhealthy interactions with men trying to connect with me lately and over stepping boundaries. I had to set a boundary over the weekend with someone very invasive. I stood my ground when they tried to gaslight me and deny what they did. Yayee me!!

I just realized as well that the current astrological conjunction of Venus and Mars in the Moon ruled sign of Cancer is squaring transiting Chiron (the wounded healer planet) in the Mars ruled sign of Aries to do with self assertion/fighting fairly for real authentic needs. My mother wound around emotions and needs is coming up to be understood and since I have the Moon and Mars conjunct the repressive energy of Saturn this is a liberation from repressions that are not only personal but collective and multi generational too.