I never deserved this : hurting myself

I was an innocent person

But you wanted to blame me

You were happy to tell me

It was my fault

Never once did you own your part

And seeking your love

Meant I had to discard

All about me that was

Powerful

Strong

And good

I am so angry about it all

At the moment

How did your concept of ‘spirituality’

Ever help?

At a certain point to say

I bought it on myself

Or chose to go through all of this pain?

It just is not true!

But there is a way to come out of this alive

With my sanity in tact

Even using pain

As pat of the path

And so it is I must

Trust myself

Because the truth is you lied

And all along the hurting

And the anger I had to bury

So as not to upset you

Only ended up with me

Hurting myself

So do not tell me all of this

Is about ‘wounded’ ego

When the truth is

What others got to develop

As a safe inviable space within the Self

Is something some of us

Struggle to know

Are actively prevented from knowing

The true value

Power

Essence

And infinite beauty

Of