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Pain like a razor

Pain like a razor rips through me

At the thought of you

Being subjected to

The cage

There is a rage that needs to come

Along with the powerful vocalization

Of the simple word

‘No’

As we fight hard to hold onto our

Knowing of our own goodness

There is a person filled with shame and bad blood

That wants to find a place to put this pain

And sometimes

Just for the sake of it

They will use you

And you will never know it was never ever ever

Really about you

May even have been all about

Some long ago pain

Now forgotten

Hidden deep

Or covered over with corruption

Its not a sin you are angry

There is an authentic part of you that just

Instinctively knows the truth

Of what hurts

So listen please

And do not consent to being hurt

By the ignorance

And deep unconsciousness

Of others

(I love the quote I chose to head this with and it may seem to conflict with the anger mentioned in my poem but when we have lacked boundaries for most of our life our anger may be intense as we first come to learn what really hurt us that others chose to invalidate within us..

In time our that fire of our anger will not rage but become a constant flame burning deep inside of us, lighting up the path to travel, the need of our soul

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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8 thoughts on “Pain like a razor”

  1. My friend, I just read your comment and I want you to know that I understand why you can become so angry. It is hard if you have no one to trust, I know that I am blessed. It wasn’t always so that I had some one I could count on in my life. When you have had a truly tragic childhood the pain is so deep and there can be triggers everywhere. I have found over the years not to put expectations on Christmas in terms of family, I am blessed because I have my daughter and grandchildren now, but my sisters I don’t even talk to them. We put up a manger and some pine and watch a service. We order something from a restaurant and watch movies. This takes a lot of the pressure off of me at Christmas. I am so sorry this was such a difficult one for you. I am praying for you and hope that you know you truly matter and there are people that do care about you. I don’t have to tell you how much God loves and cares about you. I pray you have a peaceful day and know that I love you and am giving you a big squeeze from here. xoxoxoxo

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    1. I’m really okay Joni something shifted in me last night. I had a burger in my car on Christmas day. Family close by chose to ignore or msybe devalue me I am not sure which. I’m trying not to be egoic but some people just don’t get us which I guess we have to find a,way to weather with good grace. I am glad you have all those loved ones. Sadly I aborted 6 babies but I have noticed over the past year very lovely people who truly care coming into my life like you, so I will focus on that now and on so doing try to find the very best of comfort and peace that I can. I love you darling lady and am so so deeply grateful you reached out to me and are in my life. Peace blessings for a 2022 filled with love joy smiles and beauty 🌻💙🦋🌷🌈💖 Deborah xoxox

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      1. So glad to hear from you Deborah. I do understand the family dynamics and how painful they can be. You have worked hard on yourself, celebrate that and don’t let anyone even family hurt you sweetheart. Love you, please stay safe. ❤️🤗🦋

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