Over!

I cannot lie to myself any more

I cannot pretend it didn’t hurt me

As much as it did

The casual way you treated me

The way you abandoned me

In my darkest hour

The way you always gave me the impression

I needed to be

Someone else

As I look back

It was so exhausting

So soul destroying

To keep beating my head

Over and over

Against that same old brick walk

So do not keep telling me life is meant

To be this difficult

I bloody well know struggle

But all of this rough

Is really all far too impossible

For my weary soul to bear

Life must contain joy

I am so so over

All of this disregard

Abuse and trauma