Just breathe : evening reflections

Lately in our culture I am seeing the undue power we give to the mind..Ever since hearing the first channeling by Lee Harris it has occurred to me that as an excessively yang culture we seem to have lost touch with the intuitive sensing, more yin and feminine side of life, the peace and connection we can find by attuning to nature our senses and our soul.

As a heady culture, we so often analyse and that analysis tends to become like a knife, slicing and dividing, not enabling us to see a larger underlying pattern. In fact I heard Lee’s guides the Zs say to me in my first face to face therapy session with Kat in about 3 months this morning that the mind’s influence can so often be severing, causing us to judge. From a position of judgement we do not often find wisdom, we may come upon a lot of ‘information’ but that may lead us even further away from understanding those forces that influence us.

I have noticed too, lately that when stuck in the mind I am not in touch with either my body or my breath.. Lately I am more and more aware when the old deeply entrenched mental scripts of anxiety are running me. It seems that for me, as a child having been under threat I can sometimes feel both that sense of threat as well as a sense of emergency in situations where it is not necessarily true.. There are the times I need to drop down into my body and my breath and also to notice when I am holding my breath.

Breath to me connects me to spirit and soul, all of nature breathes and the breath always moves when not arrested. Feelings will move through us if we allow them to, experiencing them rather than thinking or forming conclusions about them. Mind may often take us away from sensation and feeling.

When I allow myself to become quiet and drop down into my body breath and into nature I begin to feel more whole, more complete, more in touch on any day.. And I must say I am relishing in the quiet times.. Even if lately I am still enjoying watching interviews and shows on the lives of people I relate to.. Today I watched an old interview between Michael Parkinson and George Michael which aired in Britain in 1998 after he came out after a very public outing after exposing himself after being lured by an Americal swat team.. I loved the interview as you tell George was not going to let himself be shamed while being very honest about the level of grief he had been in due to two powerful losses in the 5 years previous. Those underlying feeling influenced what he did that some wanted to judge.

The second interview was with a British Actor and communications consultant who became very close to Princess Diana in the years 1992 to a few years before her death.. Peter Settelem, in teaching Diana how to speak in a more powerful way was also let into her very private and personal world. Over the time of their association through many conversations and interviews Diana opened up about her relationships not only with Prince Charles and the Queen but also the one with her step mother with whom she had a very trouble relationship.. Settlelem was denied access to the tapes after her death, and the interviewer almost attached him for wanting to profit from Diana’s secrets but what came through was more his desire to know her from the inside out, to understand the forces that shaped her and to help her, in time, to mature through her many painful experiences to become an ambassador of compassion. I did shed a few tears towards the end of that show, so many good people seem to be taken from us in life, and Diana was an empath despite her very lonely and troubled life.

Its good to be quiet tonight too. I am looking forward to sleep, time to just rest and be and breathe.. I ride the waves of that at times, as lately I try to ride my emotions, sadness I am not allowed at a funeral due to not being vaccinated.. Sometimes making these choices is painful and yet what else can I do.. I have to make choices for how to live, especially these days, and at times, choosing the quiet and perhaps removed option just feels more right to me.. Most of all what I require now for peace is lot of quiet time where I can rest in and be in tune with an touch with my own soul.