never be alone

in my imagination

i time travel back

to the Royal Academy of Art

and remember the darkness

of losing you

and being so far away

were you there with me then

my guardian angel

watching me as I walked the streets

lonely and aching

but feasting my senses of all

of these

beautiful soulful European things?

there I was so

set apart

no one much around me

only this vast inner yawning chasm

inside my heart

but lately I can feel

even as I walk

that daisy strewn wild nature path

the sweetness of that painf

for someone I love

and I can also be

grateful

to be loving

even as I am

opening my heart

to all of that suffering

is this not life

why run from what is so hard

why not see it as

the doorway

into life

for me lately

I am alone

but I do not feel so alone

for deep inside my heart

now that you are gone

the truth is that

I feel your love

like I never could before

knowing you will forever be

a part of me