I need to hear these words today

Grief has been oceanic today. That call from my nephew telling me Sue’s been admitted to a locked ward was tough but to hear from him accusations I’ve been two faced was devastating..does he have any idea of my childhood trauma which makes it hard to reach out especially in a world its not always safe and if you see deeper you will be sidelined?

Today I am doing my best to hold myself and hurt let myself feel sad over my sister, accepting that today I cannot do much more than pray. But I also needed to hear these words today from my self to my inner child.

You are not bad for speaking your truth even if it comes out of past experiences of pain and separation it is valid, even if its hard for others to really hear it!

Its okay to feel sad, I will hold space for you as you cry.

Its okay for you to protect yourself and seek refuge in nature and from non physical beings …possibly they understand and have even deeper insights about what is going on at a soul level for you, your nephew and your sister after all this has many many layers and is the end result of an exceptionally long family and difficult history of emotions buried as well as of emotional neglect.

Today it is wise to pray for guidance, sometimes you have no power over outer circumstances..to admit that is true power.

Trust in the process now even if it is painful. Remember most of all everyone struggles in different ways and no one person has a monopoly on truth, but your truth is your truth, trust in what your intuition says and what feels right for you, you really DO KNOW THE TRUTH OF WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU.. OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT AND YOU CAN TRUST IF SOMETHING FEELS HURTFUL OR WRONG FOR YOU OR SOMEONE YOU LOVE THAT IS ALSO TRUE NO MATTER WHO ELSE TRIES TO DENY IT.