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To bear the scars

There was a time when there was

No safe space anywhere

And so I ached with an ache that could not be

Named

And so I bled from these wounds

That kept on bleeding

And so I began

To take refuge in a dark place

As I also began

To judge, hate, dismiss

And diminish myself

Thankfully now there is a safer space

Starting to form here

Thankfully now I am no longer

Blaming myself as much

For not measuring up

The truth is I really tried

I tried too too hard at times

To fit a mold

Entirely wrong for the shape

Of my unique spirit

My generous soul

So now if you think I am strong

Please also remember that I am also

Tired

There will be brighter days for me

For all of us

Of that I am sure

But only to the extent that we learn how

To bind up these wounds

To care for them

And to know the truth of how we came

To bear the scars

So so many many

Deep psychic injuries

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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15 thoughts on “To bear the scars”

  1. The wounds heal Deb, but there will always be some scar residues left to cope with, and I think coping is a learning process of being kinder and more loving to ourselves … ..

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    2. Sorry mate but not all wounds ever close only the salt soaks deeper into the scorched tissue ”

      Time heals nothing so many are afraid to confront the storms but it is where it will teach you to live and learn

      Slainte

      Alex

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      2. Thanks mate I am not one for watering down my words just ask Darkness Emerges

        I have my weaknesses one such being when it comes to passive ppl and emotional responses I don’t know how to correlate

        I ‘ve many times but I never had privilege or luxury of having form passive or emotionally sensitive vulnerability….and for those that had that grand for me I just don’t understand how they can be drawn to let others manipulate and let others walk all over them. Without any Goddam quarrel in the form of push back to stand their ground

        Alex

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      4. Is this about me Corey? Those were not allowed boundaries have to.learn how to set them over time. To say they are weak is just like the judgments you don’t like being made about you. Everyone has their own style and challenges and people may be fighting back in their own way.. Can we please just live and let live and let people be where they are .

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      5. No not at all mate

        From my own experiences through observation if you did think it was intended towards you that was misinterpreted

        Right what I was portraying is for me I didn’t have that and to try correlate with it is very hard for me to decipher

        Not to say there is nothing wrong with being more reciprocated to your inner self on deeper emotional state I just don’t know how to understand it

        Alex

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      6. Okay thanks for the clarification Well ypu weren’t helped in that as we need that guidance by seeing others deal with emotions and your experience was nit of someone caring FOR YOU and about your emotions. So it’s understandable in the circumstances.

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  4. Brilliant mate can really sense the pain empty corrugated feeling of be lost trying to find yourself

    Slainte

    Alex

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