an antidote to despair

I honestly don’t want to give into despair right now. I was on the way to the Supermarket yesterday when the news came we would be going into a week long lock down due to a new case of Delta strain of Covid having made its way over our State borders this week. When I got to the Supermarket what I saw disgusted me to be honest – it was a frenzy… people were everywhere with trolleys stuffed to the brim with food and toilet paper. People were bumping into each other and the meat section was nearly empty and don’t even get me started on some of the obesity I saw. I just got the hell out of there as fast as I could but not before chatting to another lady who was as shocked as me, to whom I briefly chatted and also decided to get out and come back when things had calmed down. To be honest I don’t know what we’d be doing if we lived in a third world country..sometimes the sheer affluence and greed I see all around me shocks me to the core not to mention the heightened desperation and sense of panic.

Today nature is smiling, she is glistening, she is radiant and you can feel the quiet and peace after yesterday’s turmoil. It is just one case of possible delta strain here that has caused all the panic and it was interesting to see where the guy had been between the 8th and 11th of August. He was out drinking at a club between 12 and 4.45 am on Sunday morning. He then went to the Pentecostal Church (maybe to do his penitance) at 10.30 am then did a lot of shopping around town. Then he was actually out to lunch at the place my friend asked to meet me for a coffee on Wednesday, on the Tuesday before and at another cafe another night.

Anyway our government here responds quite dramatically so its probably a good thing. It doesn’t really change our life style much since I do not work due to PTSD and I can still shop locally for food and a coffee.

Today I counted my blessings, sad as it all felt. My therapist was taking a week off anyway which was oddly prophetic. I listened to a lovely talk by a new astrologer I discovered last night called Bracha Goldsmith it spoke about heart openings and kindness a lot. It make me realise too when she spoke about rage burning up (and the video was initially posted on the 27th of July) that this process feeling and releasing and giving a voice to my own rage had become super intense since then, peaking and then dying down last Friday.

Despite voices of doom and gloom around right now with things looking dark collectively with fires and flooding I’d prefer to see this as a time of potentially massive rebirth and renewal,but as Lee Harris has said in his recent updates we all need to be stepping up to make changes to start putting so much less of a burden on this heavenly planet of ours and it does not look good at all in many ways lately when we consider some of the attitudes of the powers that be who are not awake on any level and are not investing in change.

In her video Bracha spoke about the Gods of thunder as if thunderbolt energy is what so many if us are collectively experiencing right now with the strong Uranian focus of energy as this planet in Taurus continues to square Saturn. Uranus turns retrograde soon so some of those intense pressures for change will begin to be felt even more powerfully as intense internal energies within us..

I hope you get something out of the video.. I felt my own heart opening very much on Wednesday afternoon.. I do not feel half as angry as I used to.. There is more acceptance and deeper insight into the trauma of my past as well as its roots and I am ever more aware of the ancestral impacts.. Lee Harris talks a lot in many of his updates about this ancestral healing being ongoing on the planet right now for so many of us.

I still get hit with waves of sadness for all of my family and all of humanity as well as suffering animal species lately.. I am pulling my own energy in a little bit at the moment,, I really need the etheric connections right now to the angels and such… I am doing a lot of sending of love energy to those who were once part of my life with whom I may have had unresolved issues.. And I am grateful today for the simple pure things in my life. Fresh air, new daffodils and lovely winter roses in my garden, Jasper’s warm love, deep soulful brown healing eyes and soft fur, warm sunlight, a morning coffee, reading my biographies on the lives of Lenny Kravitz and Prince Harry..

I cannot afford to give into despair even when faced with so much going on in the world right now that seems both dark and painful for truly each new day is a precious, precious gift.. I really want to spend it well.