Cancer New Moon.: nurturing and vulnerability.

I have been listening to several different videos on the Cancer Moon today and reflecting on my own challenges over the past few days leading up to it and the concept of vulnerability and what we are doing to nurture or not nurture ourselves came up big time.. The Moon and Sun in Cancer put the focus on feelings, family and emotional as well as spiritual connections and it is to be noted that both Mars and Venus in Leo are currently moving out through oppositions to the planet Saturn leading up to and coming out of this new lunation. Venus and Mars Saturn aspects may make us focus on limitations or blockages driving feelings of vulnerability or the sense of lacking or not feeling good enough. But it seems to me what is most needed during this lunation is to tap into where we may be being mean to ourselves and/or shaming of our humanity, insecurities or vulnerabilities.

Cancer as an energy can also be related to vulnerability. The soft crab lives inside of its shell and makes sideways movements, often scuttling about in a very hurried way, there may be a sense of not feeling able to be seen or to come out of our shell and on a video I watched astrologer Gregory Scott talked about the tendency during this New Moon to see all of the ways in which our relationship with self or others may be lacking.. But there is always something we can do if we begin to choose to relate to the emotional self with more tenderness, acceptance and kindness just like a good mother would.

The loving inner parent may be also related to the Higher Self or a Higher Power as well as Cancer Moon energy.. I am sure in the Tarot this relates to the card of the High Priestess.. When feeling small, weak, insecure and/or vulnerable there are ways we can talk to and encourage ourselves rather that tear that part of us down,there are ways not to diminish the Divine feminine part of us that already connects us to our soul and knows what his good for us.. Part of starting to believe a lot of false beliefs about ourselves from childhood onwards is that we do not get showing ways of self acceptance and inner attunement and if our parents did not encourage our real self and wanted us to be someone else that can be a wound that may be showing it’s pain by this lunation’s square to the planet of wounding and healing in Aries. There may be a lot of issues around self assertion and self esteem also raised by this lunation shown by that square of Moon and Sun to Cancer, but to be noted is the favourable trine to both Venus and Mars in another fire sign Leo..So now is the time to trust and use and connect to your inner spirit fire in positive ways.

I had my own painful face off yesterday with someone over them shaming me for having valid reactions of upset to something and trying to pull me into a caretaker role.. In her video on the New Moon in Cancer lunation K Moon did mention that those of us pulled upon in this way may come to see the negative aspects of it coming out of today’s lunation. That has certainly been the case for me. I had to put up a big fight over it over past days.

For myself I had a much better afternoon after I took the focus off of the other person’s criticism and shaming of me and put it back on my own home life. I have prepared a lovely dinner to eat soon, I got my fruit and veggie marketing done and I had a good chat with a friend who affirmed I was well within my rights to be upset with someone trying to guilt me for getting angry and trying to set boundaries.. I am not even fearful of losing the person’s love to be honest.. Right now I am seeing if I do not love myself well I am not ever going to be truly happy.. I look back now and see many ways I gave myself up for others at times.. and yes, at times the support was needed, but it also exhausted me last month to see a loved one suffering so.. I did not go to see my sister today, I felt I needed a break and to be honest I feel better for it.. Its lovely to be home and cosy after an icy walk around the neighborhood with my dog Jasper this afternoon and doing yoga strengthening exercises has been helpful too.

In his video on the New Moon astrologer Gregory Scott talks of it being a very introspective period.. He said the worst way to handle the insecurities of this lunation would be to begin looking outside of ourselves and comparing ourselves to others. the best use of the energy would be to look for the good things in us and focus on building those up.. Creativity is also a good use of the current energy as esoterically Cancer is ruled by the highly creative undersea energy of Neptune.. And this lunation happens in a wide trine to Neptune in the other watery sign of Pisces. Music could be a very healing energy to surround our souls with over the next 28 days. We should also be looking to our intuition as well as to what kind of changes we may be able to make to improve things.. rather than focusing on how we failed or what we missed out on (negative aspect of the Sun Moon opposition to Pluto)

I got the message to write this blog about self nurture a moment ago.. the loving mother we need lives in side of us if we seek deep enough, and its never too late to learn kinder and more gentle ways to be with ourselves..We can be tender to the vulnerable and insecure self and encourage it.. We can ask within of our soul what may fill it up from the inside.

The alternative with this lunation may be to feel lost in the abyss.. but the abyss may be calling us to find the light and love and power of soul gifts or other things that infuse our lives with a greater sense of inner meaning and purpose.. For somewhere deep within we are already whole and we always know what really brings our true self, heart and soul joy, lately it just seems so much of our social conditioning functions to obscure this truth from us as we learn to engage in an empty search for external validation.