In a strange place : daily update and info on the Cancer New Moon.

Its been another week of shock for me where reality got upended commencing with huge inner emotional surges since the Moon hit Uranus in Taurus on Sunday. It seems to be the way ever since I connected with ‘Scott’, God knows what is ‘real’ any more and I am aware we are in the dark of the Moon right now..

I listened to an interesting exploration by astrologer K Moon last night on this New Moon in Cancer that is upcoming.. Besides the fact that the Sun is now only 9 degrees off of its opposition to transiting Pluto (this is the full moon of the Solar Pluto cycle thatt happens once a year) we also will be having the Sun and Moon at 18 degrees of Cancer squaring Chiron in Aries during the lunation. A lot of the video spoke of us coming to see things inside of us that may be painful to see, like wounding and old patterns in our lives.. This certainly rings true for me.. And in terms of the inner child and nurturing aspects (both related to Cancer and the Moon) these are what will be triggered, most likely in our inner and outer relationships with both the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine.. We have both polarities inside of us but nurturing issues will be big for both sexes following and around the lunation.

As a result I was drawn to get acquainted again with the Inner Bonding work of Margaret Paul which is about learning to love and have self compassion both for self and others as well as learning how to come from the intent to be curious or learn about each other and our own processes rather than judge, blame, shame or protect. According to Paul when we show our inner child love from the empathic interested inner parent we end our self rejection which so often comes naturally to us in this feminine feeling wounded modern age and society

Also, according to Paul the inner child is our divine essence, we arrive on earth knowing what and who we are and connected to spirit, but in the course of enduring wounding parenting and other conditioning we learn some very false beliefs about ourselves mostly related to lack of self love and difficulty with attuning both to our bodies and hearts as well as to our feelings.. Instead we learn to take refuge in our heads and this certainly is my experience of what happens when our vulnerable open self is wounded, split off or traumatised as children.. Sadly many of us learn to self reject, look outside of ourselves, shame ourselves or others for being human and seek safety rather than learning..

I have been feeling that split inside a lot over past weeks (between the shaming inner critic and the inner child) especially since Mercury was in Gemini and as some of you know it was retrograde for 3 weeks recently. When it moves forward into Cancer in a few days it will the last of the planets to transit through that sign..

Mars went into Cancer first, then Venus and then the Sun, Mars and Venus are both in Leo at the moment and very close to a conjunction or joining on the date of the New Moon lunation – 9 June. So if you have been feeling very emotional and vulnerable over past weeks that is not unusual and if you have been feeling the wounding to that vital sense of spirit self (Chiron in Aries) then you are not alone..

Paul reminds us that the force of spirit and love as well empathy compassion and kindness is always available to us, but our false beliefs make us forget how to connect to it.. In the course of our development we separate from our feelings, we learn to shame and judge, we split off and then we seek to find others to make us feel whole, when really that is an inside job.. This is what has been coming up for me with ‘Scott’ over past days.. the pain of knowing he wont be coming home has sparked all of the emotionally absent pain of having a father who could not attune to me bodily or emotionally when I was a child and then died when I was on the brink of adult following those 6 years of family trauma (and major Pluto transits in our family) that saw me and then my older sister nearly died.

K Moon said in her video that being able to be with our feelings instead of projecting them is going to be very important for this entire lunation. Pluto cast into sharp relief by the Sun and the Moon may show us things that were deeply hidden in the subconscious or unaware to us before. Now is the time to watch our reactions..

I will link to two videos below.. one my K Moon the other one of Margaret Paul in conversation. it is a long interview but well worth a listen.. her work and Inner Bonding group can also be found by using google search if you are interested. I am going to share about her 6 step process as well as the false beliefs in other posts over the next few days.