Whatever is happening with my sister right now inner guidance is encouraging me to see it as all a part of my path. maybe it is also a lesson in where i end and others begin and vice versa, as well as what I do and do not have control over. Out of my control are other’s choices and the way others try to control something when they decide to take power that isn’t rightfully theirs. So to be honest this psychiatrist is a charlatan as I see it. She was running out of solutions so this has been her last desperate measure. and two Sundays ago my sister tried to warn me they were trying to kill her in that place.. She may get to live on but they are killing off part of her brain and that my nephew allows this.. its beyond belief but he too has handed over power to this woman. (the psychiatrist).
I have to my 12 step practice at this point. I have to be grateful this is not happening to me but to see yet another sister being treated like this.. all the time I was with her the words of Tears For Fears song Woman in Chains were going over and over in my mind
You better not run and you better behave
and
Somewhere someone is trying hard to breathe.
Why they diagnosed her when she was just acting out adult child stress symptoms is beyond me but its the way it goes in this silly world.. there is so so much I find it almost impossible to swallow but I have to.. and who knows the outcome of this? I only see my sister being shredded over and over after getting up and fighting only to collapse and be subsumed again and yet I have to take all of this on as kind of spiritual practice. I can rage and cry all about it in the silence of my own home with Jasper and to be honest I feel its a fitting lively protest response about what is happening but maybe I need to confront this psychiatrist…I will pray about it. I can’t stop crying the pain of this is just far too deep.
As I prepare to end this post these words just came to me so powerfully.
All it takes for evil to profit is for good men (and women) to do nothing.
Emerging From The Dark Night 
Hope this pain subsides soon.
All it takes ates for evil to profit is for good men (and women) to do nothing.- It’s very admirable that even through all this pain, you’re still seeing on the bright side. More power to you! ♥♥
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The darkness comes and goes the love if human warmth and understanding is the most powerful antidote to all the pain. Making it bearable. 💙💞💙
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I understand. Sending lots of love ♥♥
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This is so sad! I don’t know what exactly happened to your sister but I’m assuming she is being detained in a mental hospital, am I right? I was in a mental hospital, albeit voluntarily, for 9 1/2 years and the abuses of power I’ve seen and been subjected to, oh my! This is so sad. All you can do is be there for your sister as much as you feel comfortable.
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Oh Astrid. I am so sorry. I’ve been si angry this morning at the abuse…I know what goes on.. she’s in there voluntarily but they forced ECT on her its making me sick anyway I am going to try in some way to fight for her. I just have to figure out a careful plan..take goid care of yourself. Have you written about what you saw and experienced? Love Deborah
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Oh, that’s so sad! ECT is really effective for treatment-resistant depression but in your sister’s case, i’m assuming whatever issues she’s facing stem from her being an adult child of family dysfunction, like you say. I’m glad you’re there for her.
As for me, yes, I write about my experiences regularly.
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Maybe it will help her. I’m not sure. I did see a slight improvement on Sunday but she also looks so grey…I will keep supporting her. 💖
And aa for your writing this is prompting me to read more..I should have realised..of course you do. 🦋
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