She tried so very hard
With all of her will to survive
There was often no time
To deeply breathe
To slow down
To love
To trust
To nurture her Self
Or to weep
Those necessary tears
That would germinate her soul
And so when she died
I cried a lot
Sometimes it was as though one body
Could not hold
All of this water
And then it was
I began to love the rain
For the soothing it bought
Mum
We cannot travel back in time
But if we could
I would now
Allow myself to
Draw closer to you
But even then
Still you may have tried
To push me away
For perhaps
It was the family curse
To so often carry
This ongoing sense of being
So alone
So bereft
So unheld
So unmothered
Emerging From The Dark Night 
Heartbreakingly beautiful. Hope you’re doing well ♥
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I am I got to share all of the sadness over this in therapy this afternoon its a blessing to be able to let it open my heart wider..<3 thanks so much for the kind wishes..
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That’s so nice! Sending you best wishes ♥♥
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Maybe, you felt the grief, not fot the death of your own mother, but uou were mourning, for thr mother you never found in her…
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I actually feel sad for all of us, we can feel for others you know its not a crime but yes what you said is also part of it.. she tried her very best with all she had endured.
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So heartbreaking touching lines!
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Thanks KK it’s for my dear Mum.
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