i do not know

i do not know

four little words that open us up

to a space of being

dissolving separations

invisible barriers our minds erect

to split and divide

and tear us apart

God only knows

the ways of the human heart

are a mystery

those we long to be close to

leave us

those we wish could leave us alone

search us out

unrentlingly

what happens when you and i

surrender ourselves

to this space

of not knowing

just allowing each other to be

and to breathe?

what doorways open

what barriers melt away

that we once believed to be

so unsurmountable?

for too many years now it seems to me

I chased knowing

when really I just wish I could have let myself

be uncertain

open

less distant

much more

closer to you