the soul’s dark night

You left me all alone

With this pain

I battled in vain to try to make you see

How much it hurt

And the root of the deep emotional scars I struggled to give voice

That no one else felt

Safe enough

Or comfortable with

And it saddens me too, to see lately

That I also

At times, became hardened

Angry that I had to endure this

The scathing looks, the misunderstanding

The exile and the scapegoating

Was I too real for you?

Or was it just that your own pain was too much to address?

Time after time I became

The dark moon Lilith

Carrying this heavy burden of ancestral ‘sin’

Which was nothing but

Denied emotions of loss

And the longing to be loved

Unconditionally

There is a way to shut the door

Or excise the ‘bad seed’

For sure in families

But who really loses out in the end

When we refuse to make room

For emotional truth

And show true compassion, empathy

And understanding?

Sad to see what becomes of those

This way exiled

Sad to see the buried shame that clothes the weaker

In layers and layers of denial

Because they lack the courage of a Lion’s heart

The fortitude to stand, strong and straight

The willingness to bear witness

And not look away

From this

The suffering

Of the soul’s dark night