Waterfall

Sometimes the waterfall of emotion

Floods over me

When I think of you and the way

Things used to be

I realize that in any life we live

So many different phases

And tonight my heart it broke in two

Just thinking of you

In that hospital room

As the words of the song’s refrain

Played inside my brain

“so far away

doesn’t anyone stay

in once place anymore?

it would be so fine to see

your face at my door”

and then the door opened

upon all of this :

love and longing

confusion, loss and helplessness

underneath this waterfall

I am flooded as my heart recalls

the threads that wove us

as a family

and then so painfully

tore

until now there is only this

absence

and the horrendous power

of a waterfall

flooding me

in some way

its a relief to finally let it break

my heart wide open

to the emotional reality

allowing the pain

not to stay

but only to pass on through

perhaps renewing my capacity to love

in some small way

for life is not always

as we choose

life

follows its own path

and even as my path

seems to veer away from you

deep inside my soul

there is never a day

you are really ever

very far away from me