Somewhere deep inside

Somewhere deep inside

All is well

Even as the wild seas of unpredictable humans

Torment us with inundating waves

There is still a place of refuge

For some of us

We can find

A gentle place of compassion

And calm

That helps us ride these

Ever changing tides

Lately I am asking myself

What it would take to be free

Of all the places and ways others wish

To capture me

To tie my hands

To keep me in prison

And I ask myself when it was exactly

That I consented to this

Because playing the victim does not seem to be

The most honest way of making sense of it all

Still there are times I cannot stop these tears from falling

And then when I see how at times

I abandon you

Without ever intending to

Things seem harder

As I recognise what has most value to me

Cannot be bought or sold

There are tears that fall all of the time

I do not know if I will ever be

Completely free

Of deep sorrow

At the tangled ways of men

It’s difficult to be totally Zen

About it all

And yet I try

Even as a wiser part of me looks on and cries

For the part of me that struggles so hard

To reconcile

Her heart and mind

With all of this

But maybe there are many parts of me

And the easiest way

To be free

Lies simply

In witnessing

This ever shifting play

Of duality