I could not save you

I watched you burn so many times

I stayed as close as I could

And I held inside me and then released

So many of the tears they stole away from you

I should be grateful for this

To have been given this strength

And feel so sad for all of the times

I attacked myself over being real

There was no way to save you

Those seven years ago

They decided to cut off the supply of air

Because they did not have the will to really care

Only wanted rid of the ‘burden’ of you

I watched it all and wept

And drowned my voice

And in a way it was a liberation

When you returned to Source

Today I feel your spirit all around me

And a black crow just cried

Which reminds me you are close

Weep for me sister

But I am strong

It will not be long before

I will be free of this loveless place

This world is a spiritual wilderness

Until we awaken

And this can only happen

If we allow our heart to break

Open

Over and over and over again

Instead of trying to stand

So still and impervious to it all

Made hard by an indomitable will

That will not ever allow itself to

Surrender

And completely open it’s heart

To love

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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8 thoughts on “I could not save you”

  1. It is, often hard, when we want to, save someone, but, we weren’t, supposed to, and, we carry that guilt, of watching that individual suffer, even though, we weren’t meant to save her/him, we still, feel, responsible, for what happened, to them…

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