I needed you

I needed you

But I could not allow my mind to know

My body knew

Even when I withdrew

There was an umbilical chord

Pulling me

Back to the place

Of earliest injury

And if in dreams I flew

Hoping to escape the pain

How long would it take me to face the truth

Escaping this wound

Was never possible

So if over years I longed and wept

And cursed and raged

Only this grief and protest

FUlly felt and released

Would help to turn the page

On a new chapter

Even as I continue to read the book

Of ancestral suffering

Let me remember there is still

A way to rise

While still keeping two feet

Firmly planted in the nourishing

If often painful ground

Of reality