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I will sit here quietly

I will listen to my own heart beating

I will remember you

I will feel the missing and the love

I will give it all room here

I will be grateful you gave me life

Even though living fully hurts

I will be grateful for the together times

Even as I weep with how you denied me

So many times

I will remember you were wounded too

I will let this body go slowly

Calmly

Gently

There is no rush

Life is dying at every moment

But flowering too

Let me accept both rhythms

Quietly as I breathe in and out

Bearing deep witness

Marking time with it all

And I will.remember

If I trust it

Pain will show me where

My desire for new life lies

For God knows

My life is so far from over

And if I listen quietly

The truth of where it wishes to take me

Will emerge like a wave

And ever so powerfully

Carry me home