Sometimes this pressure in my head
Reminds me of how I ran
And how I found it hard to stand
The feeling of being with you
Maybe you loved me more than you could show
Maybe you did not really know
The way to connect
How to express your love
Never the less sometimes I travel back
To that summer after the accident
I was so vulnerable
But no one could see
And then it would not be long
Before Judy’s head bled
On that February afternoon
Things became so dark
That sometimes its hard to remember
There once was love and light
Sometimes I wonder if it is really me
Who pushed you all away
Due to the pain
Why couldn’t you see I needed you?
Why didn’t you come
When I came so badly undone?
The truth is I longed for you
But I also longed for my life
Then the wilderness opened up
And within it I was lost
For so many years
It just was the way it was
And so it helps to cry
These silent tears
To release some of the pressure
Of accident time
Head injury
Past multi-generational pain
Soul and body crushing
Imprints and memories
Emerging From The Dark Night 
These imprints are are unfathomably deep deep Deb…. please be kind to yourself, allot yourself a piece of kindness each day..((Hugs))
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I try to Ivor it just hits me really hard between 5 and 7 the time if my head injury. I just get flooded hugs and love..
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I flood you with ((hugs)) π€π€
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It seems weβre all lost sometimes, when it comes to love. Beautiful words Deb. β€οΈπ
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Bles you E yes we all.long for it but often it proves elusive then sometimes this ocean of love opens up amidst great pain. Hard to articulate that but I feel you will understand. π
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You know I do. One of things Iβve always appreciated about your writing is that it can rip my heart out and at the same time remind me of all the love in the universe. Thatβs your superpower.β€οΈ
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Aww thats so wonderful to read…thank you heaps π¦ππ¦
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A beautiful post I like it thank you so much
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God bless . that is lovely to read..
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