Sometimes sadness

Sometimes sadness is here

Sometimes I find its burgeoning ocean

Rising inside my chest

As I realise how powerless I so often

Used to feel

In a world where so very much

Seemed to lay outside of my control

There I was trying to pretend

I knew the way

Even as I was faltering

And the land beneath my feet was never

Truly still

Wild tides always seemed to be rising

Just like this sadness now

When you reach out to me and speak of love

I doubt the truth

Though I do know love

I know it with the way I treat my sadness now

And with the courage and openness with which

I somdtimes embrace

My helplessness

In the face of so very much

I have no power over

Yet today I rise from my bed

And make the choice to live

Even if it just involves the simple daily tasks

As well as opening to a state of grace

Where I surrender it all to God

And ask for help

To live this day well

Sometimes in a world so oblivious

It was almost impossible to see myself

But now I do

And I know the whole of me

People say I am strong

And maybe I am

But oh so often you will never truly know

The many times I falter

As sadness rises over a long and difficult past

Where so much seemed to be

Endlessly slipping away

From me