I grieve : inside of you

I grieve

For the part of me

That put myself to death

That put others

Above myself

On the list of need

I grieve

For all of the wasted years

I spent living

Fed on a thousand illusions

And dreams of unreality

I grieve too

For all of the fear

That blocked my way forward

And for the loss of courage

That made me collapse

There is no way to blame any more

Conditions outside myself

There are no more excuses

For no longer fully living

And loving this life

And even though I grieve

Do not be deceived

For there are yet

More seeds and roots

Germinating and

Coming to life

Amidst all of this

Loss, grieving and death

Nourished

By all of these tears

For water contains the healing gift

So don’t let anyone else

Confuse your truth

For all you need to grow your Self

Lives on

As dormant life energy

Inside of you