Cry : Surrender to the night

At this time of night I cry

I honestly cannot tell you why

But the tears cannot stay inside my eyes

Which just brim

As my heart swells

Fit to bursting with all of this

Remembering

And longing

There are truly

No words for these feelings that come

To light with the setting of the Sun

And I cannot explain

How close the past is to me

When night begins to steal in

On slippered feet

At times I see the chaos and deep confusion

My soul is so often living in

As the heavy weight of matter

Surrounds me

And then it feels as if my axis

Is ever so slightly off kilter

There are realisations dwelling here

It is really useless to speak

And then arrives

That sense of the transpersonal

Drawing so near to me

And so I cleave to music and silence

As the inner river rises

Knocking me sideways

With its flood

As I reach to touch your soft fur

And feel the sense of wholeness missing

In a place beyond

Where our minds are head prisoner

By thoughts

There are no words

But lot of reasons

I cry

But I would rather not say why

Just let the river rise

And allow the flood to break me open

As I let go of the daylight

And surrender my soul

To the night