Pregnant emptiness

Please

I don’t wand to be unkind

Or leave you behind

Bearing this burden you carry

Which is so much a mirror of mine

Especially coming at a time

Pregnant with greiving

One would think

That the feeling of winter leaving

Would bring a glimpse of sunshine

To our hearts and minds

But all too often

This uprush of new life

Births nothing but tears

As an aching body cries

With the memories

As all of this deep feeling

That can no longer be kept

Quiet

Emerges from inside

And this is when I feel as though

All of my breath is stolen

Made beholden

For an illness that came

Poisoning the spring time

Playing on repeat

So if I withdraw

And stay silent

Will you understand my heart?

All around I sense

Echoes within echoes within echoes

Stretching along a corridor of time

That leads back to you

How do I find my way

Through this alone

How do I trust the truth I feel I know

When everyone else

Seems to have become

Deaf, dumb and blind?

So please

I am begging you

Take it easy on me

As I try to find the way through

Each waking hour

Haunted by death echoes

As the vice of fear and repression

Tightens inside my chest

While new life bursting forward

Holds its breath

Standing on the precipice

Of this yawning chasm

Of pregnant emptiness