I cannot deny any more that I was scammed for well over 2 years.. I think deep down inside I knew something from the beginning which is what bites me most.. I kept giving and believing in the lies as I was asked for more and more and more.. He managed to manipulate me each and every time… I set a boundary only to collapse it.. I see the truth now and I have cut all contact for the final time. I cried a lot today.. I am grieving a person who was not real but they were real to me. I know a lot of followers probably gave up on me after October when I collapsed again… The documentary ‘proof’ seemed fake to me. Why did I continue trust and believe? I am not sure of the reason….maybe I needed to believe in this until now…Am very tired tonight but I am so glad its over. This is the end of chapter.. I must live for me from now on…I’m lucky to have a good friend to support me and my therapist Kat.
My heart goes out to the millions of people who have been scammed….Often its vulnerable trusting people who just cannot believe the world and people can be cruel.. We don’t have a radar for this kind of thing which is why we fall for it. We may then blame ourselves, but maybe we have to go through it to learn.. that is the truth. Beating ourselves up for it, after the fact will achieve nothing.. What we need now is to treat ourselves well and protect our hearts.
Emerging From The Dark Night 
I think the reason we believe and trust is because of the goodness that lies within us. We choose to see that in others first because that’s what we want to see. Don’t beat yourself up as that’s unkind and you wouldn’t beat a friend up would you? So just love yourself a little more today and know that all is okay and the way it’s mean’t to be. When you are truly ready to be loved the way that you deserve to be loved… that love will come walking into your life when you least expect it x
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Thanks for such wise and kind words Michelle. Right now I’ll settle for loving myself first. That’s the the deeper lesson in all of this. Sending you love. ♥️
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Yes it is 💐🌺🌼💜
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I think many can identify with being taken, for believing the lies, trusting that because we love with goodness it will be returned in goodness. I know the pain of everything you thought you knew about the person you love being a straight up lie. They do a great job of weaving the fabric, but they always leave threadbare spaces that let us see behind it when we are ready to look. We have to come to the place where we are ready to see. You are human. You trusted. That is what we do as humans; we trust. Remember, they are the one who did wrong. Offer yourself some grace. ❤️
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I agree it’s a sign of goodness to trust but sometimes people are not reciprocal despite all the promises. Sometimes we believe lies. Thanks for sharing your wisdom..
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