No words that I can say

No words that I can say

You look the other way

As my heart falls to the bottom of the sea

I dig as deep as I can

Trying to make a connection

Only to find this

Resounding silence

Echoing between us

Deepening my emptiness

How is that with you

I fall into such

A powerless place

Overwhelming feelings

Only to find my feelings

Batter down the door

And throw me all around the floor

As soon I as I get home

Released from the pressure chamber

Of privilege and perfection

Within which which no living heart or soul breathes

This is not the life I chose

I am one of those who must dig deep

And I don’t belong in that world of sheep

Or hide myself that well behind

Accoutrements

Because to me the inner life rules supreme

Even if it seems to others

So little goes on beneath the surface

Why is it that I only feel

Most at home

When alone

Most content within my own company

While with all I ever seem to do

Is ache or cry silently

Whenever you are near

Its just so very hard to breathe

Or feel seen

Within your company

I do not think that I

Cant bear this emptiness

For one more day