You wrote

You wrote

To say how sorry you were

To hear the news

That you loved her so

And my dear she loved you

Both peas in a pod

I chose the man my mother would have been

and maybe that is the real reason

it all fell apart at the seams

even though at times I blame myself

for it was I who left you

at a time when everything was far too much to bear

your email

it tore on my heart

I felt a knife close to the breast

that cancer hurt

maybe this comes at the time

I am finally opening my heart to love

and forgiveness

in the end it was you who left

and I broke apart completely

but never the less

for a while we knew a love

and that

still beats inside my chest

along with all of the other

memories

longings

and regrets