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Never in the history

Never in my six year history of blogging have I gone more than 1 day without posting something, so this week I set a new record.. Life has just been overwhelming with emotional issues and boundaries, someone got upset with the way I have been expressing myself and basically hammered me for the past few days, this and other things have taken a toll on my body.. but I got out into life and met up with a good friend and her Pug, Percy for a beautiful natureland walk yesterday afternoon and then was invited around for afternoon tea which is something that would not happen in non Corona Virus days, we usually went to a café and I must say how lovely it was to share time and to be with the two dogs together.. My friend does mindfulness counselling and works in mental health and is someone I can talk to honestly about most things emotional and inner and I felt so set right after spending time with her. She lost her Mum a few years before mine at this time of year and so it was a good time to get together what with it having been Mother’s Day in Australia last Sunday..

Not much else to report.. I had another time of being pressured to help someone and its really put me into an anxious place.. Its hard for me to say no with anxious attachment…so I booked an extra therapy session this week.. I am learning that a lot of the time what I feel think sense and need is right on cue and the endless theme in therapy often involves how much I put myself to death at times and then try to help others out of a compensation. Helping just comes second nature to me but I have been feeling exhausted by it recently to be honest…I have gone through a few tough weeks lately.. really been struggling with body symptoms. Tonight it a comfort to sit quietly in the dusk with my mobile phone OFF…. I am actually feeling like a digital detox for a few days, whether or not I manage it is another thing… the only thing I can say, as I often do.. time in nature is what I most need, when the human world and endless issues and demands of others often prove to be too taxing.

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"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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      1. It’s ok Deborah. I do too even though I cant see it. We have started going out each afternoon in the car even though we are not allowed to get out of it.

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      3. Yes we have been hit very hard due to the government not acting quickly. We only had a few cases at first, like three or four. But I think the problem was the airports etc. People coming back from foreign holudays especially Northern Italy. Skiing hols. That was where Italy had it real bad. But from Wednesday we can go out if we want althoug as the shielded group we are not meant to. We will go where there are no other people.

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  4. Hi Deb, great to hear you had a relaxing day. We must be in sync’, because I to, have had a restful day.
    I’m sitting down to dinner…. What a scrumptious treat…
    I bought myself some fresh Atlantic Salmon yesterday, wrapped it in foil, with a dabble of butter, lemon juice and pepper… It’s turned out perfect… the salmon is melting in my mouth… I’ll send you an email pic’ soon.. ((hugs)) 💙🌏

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