Stay?

Stay, you say

But I am weary of this and my being is aching

I need to be in a place where I can feel my own heart breaking

Open

So I can be in touch with soul

And listen for the voices of the ancestors

And my angels

I always knew that on some level

I was a stranger to this world

You were my family

But I never really felt I belonged

With you

Indeed I always sensed my soul

Needed so much more than this

And so now

I must no longer erase myself

Or swallow down my own truth

To find a place with you

For the result is bitterness

And stagnation

And an endless frustration

So please

Do not ask me to stay any more

In a place I was never truly welcome

Or understood

Before