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Lock down : terrible poetry

This is just a vent poem its not at all good but I just had to do another phone therapy sessions and its fucking with my body big time.

Head burning

Heart in pain

Frustration and yearning

Who can I blame

Today besieged by a deluge of rain

I struggle with being told

Stand on the red dot

Don’t get too close

Under my breath mutter a prayer

Don’t ask me how my day is going

When you don’t really want to be knowing the truth

This distance is a fucking curse

How much more disembodied can we become

Getting fed up

Want to shout at someone

But then I will only be judged

Cant even think about love

Right now

Longing to look in your eyes

Or have at least have a hug

Sorry social distancing

Today I have had

Enough!

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Published by: emergingfromthedarknight

"The religious naturalist is provisioned with tales of natural emergence that are, to my mind, far more magical than traditional miracles. Emergence is inherent in everything that is alive, allowing our yearning for supernatural miracles to be subsumed by our joy in the countless miracles that surround us." Ursula Goodenough How to describe oneself? People are a mystery and there is so much more to us than just our particular experiences or occupations. I could write down a list of attributes and they still might not paint a complete picture pf Deborah Louise and in any case it would not be the full truth of me. I would say that my purpose here on Wordpress is to express some of my random experiences, thoughts and feelings, to share about my particular journey and explore some subjects dear to my heart, such as emotional recovery, healing and astrology while posting up some of the prose/poems which are an outgrowth of my labours with life, love and relationships. If anything I write touches you I would be so pleased to hear for the purpose of reaching out and expressung ourselves is hopefully to connect with each other and find where our souls meet.

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    1. Well its more essential than anything Carol Anne, in my humble opinion…. so I really understand.. I am so missing seeing Kat in real time…. we will possibly skype from next week but its just not the same… love you … sending a cyber hug.. though its only a small consolation….:) ❤

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  4. Really feel for you Deborah. Such powerful words that will resonate with so many. It’s okay to want to shout out – put some crazy loud music on and dance like a crazy woman to expel some of that tension 🙂 sending you love and hugs from across the seas 💓

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  5. Hang in there this is so hard right now and I know what you are going through. I am also struggling in all this. It’s funny to me I thought I loved isolation but nope that really isn’t the case. Please remember you are not alone you will never be alone! Here is a virtual hug 🤗!

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    1. If you scroll down you can see some of my likes.. I love to come across random posts that link to mine one of my favourites on here is Benny K of the Written Addiction. I Just love those who are raw and real and am a huge fan of poetry… always free to chat when you want… always up to find a new blog to read…especially now.

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  7. I hear you. This lockdown and the state of our world really interferes with our mental health in more ways than one. The hug thing and not seeing our therapists in person is especially tough. Sending love. ❤

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    1. It is Rayne. I just saw a woman crying on the news last night and they said “and no one was allowed to hug here” this along with images of children visiting grandparents behind glass horrify me… but we do have to endure.. hope you are coping okay and sending all of that love back Rayne… ❤

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  8. Thank you for posting this. Many people including myself are in the same spot. The way I deal with it is too try too learn something new. Lol my blog. I’ve never blogged and never thought of blogging before but it’s now that we need to try our best to stay strong through this. As hard as it is to do. Try to think of any positive that you can. So I said during this time I am going to use the time to learn and come out a better stronger person. And i can read more books on helping my daughter wither her ASD. Please try to stay strong.

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    1. I agree think its wonderful if you starting blogging now. I have positive days and then some days I go into a dark frustrated place due to old trauma but I agree with every word you wrote here. And everyone is in the same boat just not everyone had known such depths of isolation this acts at times as such a powerful trigger. I will. Love to you Jamie.

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  9. Beautifully said. Use the pain of your old trauma to motivate you if you can. I do this daily and it gives me strength I never knew existed. I do have bad days too but I just try to remember why I’m doing what I’m doing and think of things I’m grateful for. We are all isolated now and we all took our freedom for granted. We have to accept this and try to use this time in a positive way. Goodluck with everything. Love to you too

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      1. Yes. Use this time to come out a better stronger person. Read and learn. Watch YouTube clips that teach you things. We all just need to try to focus on the positive while there is so much negativity out there.

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      2. Well I do think crying about the distance makes sense as its shows us something essential about our hearts and true needs.. Just my opinion.. but then we look to the light and the beauty… its both/and.. 🙂

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