I feel sadder and sadder at times being out in the world and seeing how remote everything is getting and then I get upset with those who are shaming the people who still do want to get out and about.. Its getting to the point that if you want to reach for some life certain people are judging you…does this virus really mean that we cannot have any contact with strangers and ABSOLUTELY everyone has to keep a 1.5 metre distance between them?
I have purposely not listened to any news for the past few days.. I tuned into the Corona cast on the radio last week but I ended up getting too triggered so I have given it a miss over the weekend and this afternoon I am feeling low as I usually have therapy to look forward to on Monday and lunch out and both activities are now not possible.. Don’t get me wrong, I know its not a huge sacrifice but at the same time we need outlets from ourselves at times…not being able to process all the deep feelings that are being stirred up in me at the moment face to face and being only limited to a phone call is not easy. From reading other blogs many with mental health issues are struggling in similar ways.
Today my sister came over and we went for a lovely walk behind the nursery in peaceful wooded area with a path leading to a bridge which affords beautiful views of the lake in both directions.. But we encountered an extremely angry man on a reclining bicycle on the way.. I had let Jasper off the lead briefly and he was on the path, I understand the man was upset but the venom with which he attacked us was pretty ugly to see. That said I understand why people are on short fuses.. We came home and had lunch and bit of a chat before my sister went off to do some other things..
Feeling a bit tired this afternoon and looking forward to a quiet night…I have not had the impulse to write much over past days…it was lovely today to be with someone I could give a hug to, that did not need to keep me at a distance, so that is going on my gratitude list tonight.. Wishing everyone the best of possible Sundays… I am going to eat soon and watch a DVD I bought before viewing the final of Dancing With the Stars…. its one form of entertainment that has not yet been vetoed….then have an early night.. When I am asleep I don’t have to think about Corona Virus or social distancing… and that’s a relief to be honest.
Emerging From The Dark Night 
I know how you feeling Deb… we cannot but help, that our emotions and empathy be dragged into the overall big…. I’m afraid suffering terribly from mental fatigue, and physical tiredness, due constant presence the virus has on my anxieties, and my bodies capabilities during during these times of isolation…… I’m basically ok, but lethargic and generally tired….. ☺😐☺😗
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I understand Ivor because today for the first time in ages I felt the same…and in the general atmosphere..if youve been through loss I think it hits you extra hard..if you are older and not as strong it also is a worry. Fear does weaken our immunity and so does isolation not everyone has family to stay home with..am not sure the powers that be get this ..sending you love and a hug. 💖🤗
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I’m used to living by myself, but this is different, as you say, it’s a heavy atmosphere over souls… 🤔💙🌏🤗🤗
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It is Ivor there is something so unreal about it..
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Yes, but I’ve been through a lot, and my inner strength will hold me good stead… 💙🌏
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It will we all need to call on resilience. Theres benefits to this time..I was in a darker space yesterday..theres things we can do to stay engaged.
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So understand this. My brain is both constantly racing and tired. But we are ok and having some fun. It’s an odd feeling.
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Yes i get very sad then i was getting bursts of happy energy and laughter..tonight I’m just feeling headachy and tired..looking forward to some sleep.
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